Suzy Hotrod retired last night as the Jammer and team captain of The Queens of Pain … she was my favorite jammer, next to Bonnie Thunders … it was sad and I felt drained. The Bronx Gridlock won, they battled the Queens of Pain … but Thunders is unstoppable … and everyone pretty much knew this was going to happen going into the game. Nevertheless, I suppose feeling sad really does mean that I love roller derby and the roller dolls who give it there all in the name of entertainment, even if it is an underground sport.
CYNICISM DISCREDITS CRITICISM. yet, criticism does not discredit cynicism.
Life is a warfare and a stranger’s sojourn, and after fame is oblivion. – Marcus Aurelius
why do dreams linger like memories, waiting to be reborn if we only own the right soundtrack … which iTunes can provide? Why is consistent validation of memories, born on rooftops in our 20’s trying to breach our isolation with just the right lines about just the right insignificant bullshit so god damn crucial to making our future? Society depends on our addiction to a better future, who will help us become better junkies?
good looking atheists are cheating, I just woke up from having a dream where I was flying by concentrating my energy inward. What qualifies Naomi Campbell to dispense life advice? If your average height or short, you can’t listen to the advice of tall people either. It is easier to be fat then short, if anyone says otherwise they have a mouthful of shit. I woke up, knowing that I couldn’t fly … and that I never stood naked after fucking the girl I loved in highschool … charity cases make you complacent, if you give charity you grow complacent … if you accept charity you become weaker. The longer you don’t bother with other people, the meaner you become. If you move to new york city and expect everything to get better, you will eventually leave for a nicer place. If you move to new york city and expect that you will be treated with some respect and recognized for being awesome because you have a pork pie hat and tattoo’s you should live in Portland or anywhere else. No one will know how funny you are, unless you make it a point to make other people laugh … when you die, someone will be born to take your place … there are other people who are waiting to take your place right now. Ever talk to someone who sounds like they know what they are talking about, until they get onto a conversation about something which you really know a great deal about and they expose just how weak minded they actually are? So say’s a lot about being a minority, it means fuck all that you work with autistic’s or know autistic people. Everyone thinks there pain is unique, eventually we accept the human condition or kill ourselves. Dealing with pain is simple, just don’t think about being in pain and you are not in pain. Pain is all in my mind, my mind is a wave of calm. You are not special, do you know how many people die by cancer or car crashes? Painting does not make you a painter, sculpting does not make you a sculptor … art is a noun … calling yourself an artist does not stop the qualitative difference in different works of art. Likewise, there are poorly constructed chairs and well constructed chairs … a chair seems to be of infinitely greater importance then making something that only has value if you use your imagination, you can’t sit on your imagination. We are all alone, we dream as we die … we die as we dream. Magic does not exist, there is no geographic cure for psychological problems … i.e. moving to California will not make you pop punk, living in new york city will not make you cool. However, if you are upset because your country is a war zone … it will help to remove yourself from the constant fear of danger. Aneurysm’s are democratic, we could all go at any moment. People who speed on the highway, parkway, expressway seem to have watched too many movies. Aggressive behavior is a sign of civilization, in a primitive state aggression is only a means for survival … we first have to assume the best, to be shocked by reality. Watching celebrities on the news is a waste of time. Money is awesome, however I’m only saying this because money could get me out of legal trouble … the expectation of legal trouble, because of having too much fun is a good sign that you are not thinking clearly about making money. Looking good is important, the world is superficial … the quality of your life is largely determined by patterns beyond your control … accepting this reality is paramount to maintaining sanity. Friends who expect you to change, are not in it for the long haul … fair weather friends only mean you are in danger, again danger is largely based on our own perceptions. Hatred is pure, love is a weapon people use to control you. Controlling others is always a bad idea, everything is always beyond our control … our time would be spent wisely if we concentrated on becoming better at the things we are already talented at. Writing a lot does not mean anything, if 80% of what you are saying is complete crap. English first is a good program, Columbus day should be celebrated … the noble savage is silly idea. The basic rule of the universe is power imposing itself onto the powerless, celebrating the powerless does not change the past.
I remember in the mid 2000’s when young people use to say “I’m not political” when pressed on the issue of politics … In a sense I’m glad today that our country is so fucked up in most respects that if anyone would say this today, they would either seem completely ignorant, apathetic, pretentious or just plain stupid. It seem’s that our economic hardship’s force people to drop the pretentious act and become real human beings.
“Stood in firelight, sweltering. Bloodstain on chest like map of violent new continent. Felt cleansed. Felt dark planet turn under my feet and knew what cats know that makes them scream like babies in night. Looked at sky through smoke heavy with human fat and God was not there. The cold, suffocating dark goes on forever and we are alone. Live our lives, lacking anything better to do. Devise reason later. Born from oblivion; bear children, hell-bound as ourselves, go into oblivion. There is nothing else. Existence is random. Has no pattern save what we imagine after staring at it for too long. No meaning save what we choose to impose. This rudderless world is not shaped by vague metaphysical forces. It is not God who kills the children. Not fate that butchers them or destiny that feeds them to the dogs. It’s us. Only us. Streets stank of fire. The void breathed hard on my heart, turning its illusions to ice, shattering them. Was reborn then, free to scrawl own design on this morally blank world. Was Rorschach. Does that answer your questions, Doctor?” – Rorschach: Watchmen
Trying to verify my account so I can post a comment on IMDB because someone is “trolling” the Watchmen message board and speaking ill of the movie, is mind numbingly stupid. For the record, The Watchmen in all it’s forms is good work. Attempting to defend the creative acts of other people because they are ill informed or misguided is tedious and below contempt.
I was bullied by the help desk in the computer lab at Hunter college, it wasn’t fun. Although I got even with my retribution since I told the dean of students that they were attempting to bully me. I could personally care less how some stupid college kids act, I am just concerned for younger students who might experience bullying because of delayed time processing and wearing sunglasses in doors.
today I was ridiculed for wearing sunglasses and people started to speak slowly to me because I was listening to the words they were using to tell me they could not access a database at Hunter College, it was bullying against neuro-divergence, my sunglasses are for a medical purpose and I was stressed out so my time processing was delayed. It was upsetting, although it only serves to demonstrate that I should rely on logic and work really hard because I will always be victimized socially.